The Soreness!

Yesterday was another beautiful day out on the track with my trainer. Its funny, we were moving and moving good. I lost my air in one second and the next thing I knew I had to stop cause I felt like I was gonna lose my lunch. GOOD TIMES!!! Fortunately I didn't up chuck, but I was close.

This morning my left thigh muscles in the front are sore and the back of my right thigh is sore. So weird! But I feel pretty good. This week and next week are really my GO TIME! As I strive to meet a minor goal I made for myself. So today for lunch I will be walking half a mile to Subway to get my five dollar sub, and a half mile back just to eat it. LOL! Good times for sure.

Let's get it in. Eat clean, and feel lean! Until we meet again!

A sense of Accomplishment!!!!

Oh my goodness! It has been a long and hard year! As you can see from my lack of postings that I had completely fallen off. What can I say, life is HARD!!! Especially when you're trying to create space for yourself to do right by yourself. WELL! The picture above was taken this last September at my cousin's wedding. I squeezed myself into this dress, and put on a brave face as I went out in it. I did not feel beautiful or comfortable for that matter in my dress. I did the best I could to mask how I truly felt, but I had truly given up.
A friend slash brother of mine was telling me about a trainer that he signed up with, and I found myself feeling really.... lost???? If that makes sense. I figured I needed that kind of help as well.

I talked to a cousin of mine and she told me about a newly starting company. The owner and creator is a local sweetheart of mine. I spoke with the owner and we decided on a plan of execution and we began November 1st. Now I'm not gonna lie to you, I have been in my own way. A better lifestyle is hard to come by when so many of your unhealthy habits are emotionally charged. My progress has been coming, but I don't give myself credit like my trainer keeps telling me I should. At my trainer's urging I've started trying on some of my clothes to see how they fit me. Wait let me back up. My workout schedule is:

Sundays ~ Legs and cardio (with trainer)

Tuesdays ~ Cardio (on my own)

Fridays ~ Arms and upper body (with trainer)

So the week before I did burpees and my left knee did not like them too much. So on my Sunday workout my trainer noticed and she told me to take it easy and to monitor my progress. Tuesday instead of doing my normal xBox Zumba workout I decided to do my xBox Hip Hop Dance Experience and my knee was fine. But since our schedules didn't exactly link up on Friday we agreed to combine my Friday and Sunday workout on Saturday.
My trainer introduced a new exercise, that I was so proud of myself for being able to execute even though its REALLY hard. I don't know the name for it, but its a form of a plank. I didn't think I would be able to do it. But I was so excited when I could do it that I even volunteered to do more. A rare thing, most times I'm rolling my eyes and playfully accusing my trainer of hating me as I say thank you in my heart for making me do something I don't want to do. Makes sense right? Totally! But I was so excited when I did this really hard exercise, I felt a sense of accomplishment. But wait there's more....
When I was in high school I asked my dad if I could run track. He told me no, and no matter how hard I tried to convince him that I really wanted and needed to do it, he wouldn't budge. So all my life I've sat with all the what ifs, and I imagine myself as a runner. But I'm not even built like an athletic person so hey it is what it is. So we spent about a little over two hours working out Saturday. But the best part is when I slowly jogged the ENTIRE LAST LAP!!!! YES! YES! YES! SO JUICED!!! SO EXCITED! No, I'm not fast yet, but the fact that I made it all the way around without stopping has me so excited and feeling like my body is responding to all the madness. YES! I wanted to cry when I came in for my big finish. On the last curve "I" challenged myself to make it count and try to run faster. I was laughing like a crazy person and going crazy! My trainer said I was hilarious! But I did something I've NEVER been able to do. And YES my heart was filled with joy and EXCITEMENT! Now we wont talk about how I gasped for air in the end and for a quick second thought I was going to throw up. But that was all my fault for pushing. But I was happy.

I have noticed little differences like the muscles in my thighs, and subtle changes in my clothes. But the other day I was so excited to find a Niner shirt that it wasn't until later that I noticed a subtle change in my face when I took this picture.

So yea, there's progress. But I have a LONG way to go. Thank you "Creating Healthy Habits" for working with me and getting me this far. I know I have a long way to go. But I appreciate everything you've done.

Motivated

Motivation is the psychological feature that arouses an organism to action toward a desired goal and elicits, controls, and sustains certain goal directed behaviors.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Motivation

So today is DAY 1. I got my walk in. Made conscience effort not to go crazy this morning with breakfast. At this moment I'm GOOD! Had my iTunes blasting in my ears as I took each step. Then I pushed myself a little harder. By the end of this song I wanna be around the corner. Two laps around a city block and I'm sweating up a storm. At this moment I feel as I can do this. I feel like with each moment that passes I have conquered.... something. LOL! Not sure yet... lets just say.... Yea! Let's say I'm conquered the fat in that moment. And the sweat that keeps beading up on my skin is my fat crying as it dies a slow death. I'm not gonna talk about long term goals, and or even the short term. I'm gonna take this moment by moment. At these past few moments have me feeling like a WINNER! So much so that I just took a HUGE chug of some Apple Cider Vinegar.... YUCKS! My taste buds hate me for doing that to them. And yep they're arguing with my stomach about teaching me lesson right at this moment. OK so maybe I wont take it that far again. But oh......

The Beginning

I took a picture of my face today to mark the beginning. YES I KNOW! Starting over again. I don't know if I want to go the route of habitual calorie counting. If I focus mainly on raw fruits and vegetables I should be able to achieve my goals. Now its already after noon an I haven't done a lick of exercise today. But that's OK, I will squeeze it in, in a minute. Today is a new day, full of new possibilities and new chances. I'm starting over from ground zero. Being strict with myself never works and I know this, but I guess sometimes I forget. I wont go over board, but I will express self control. Hold on to your seats, Lizzy's at it again. Start with a fizzle and end with a bang. let's get it done, I'm gonna get it in.

Every Day I'm struggling!

So I sent a few of my family and friends the Fitness Pal app. Only my Soul Sistah Number One accepted my offering and plea for help. Sometimes I feel..... I know I shouldn't, but my imperfection leads to feel like.... naw why go there.

I cant stay in this funk... I didn't eat crazy but I didn't follow my plan today... oh well. Such is life. I got a whole bunch of cakes to make and I don't know how I'm gonna manage being on my program and making these cakes. I made Sweet Potato Casserole this weekend. As I reorganized two of my kitchen cabinets. That did make me feel better about that aspect of my living space. I gotta keep that going.
Meanwhile we went walking up and down Moeser Lane. We walked about two miles of Steep hillside. Yes, today I am sore, and its wonderful! But I wanna go back. We'll see if I will be able to manage it. Maybe I'll take the puppy for a walk this evening....

Tuesday March 27th

OK so, it wasn't my fault. I had an excellent Tuesday - Friday, but the weekend came and I caved. I completely messed up! Gotta start over, did OK today and yesterday. But I'm feeling the guilt. Oh well, here's to starting over.

Thursday, March 22nd

OK so I'm back. I found a lovely app on my phone "My Fitness Pal" that makes me feel good every time I enter my food choices for the day. Its say if you continue to eat this way you should weigh about XX in five weeks. That's is so encouraging to read, and a little moral booster at the end of the day. Like for example. I did good yesterday until I got home. I had to do hair, and it left me no time to figure out what I was going to eat for dinner. So my mother who was tired from her day lovingly went into the kitchen and made dinner for everyone. Mashed Potatoes, Fried chicken, and i think corn. Well I didn't want any chicken, but my mother knowing that I ONLY eat white meat chicken made sure she fried a chicken breast for me. I could see the tired in her eyes when she came out the kitchen. I don't know about you but I could not let my mother's labor of love go unnoticed or unappreciated just because of what I'm doing. So later that night I ate the chicken she made for me put about 2 tablespoons of potatoes with it and ate it. I was so afraid to see what the calorie count was going to look like that I didn't do anything last night. This morning I entered the info into the calculator and it still congratulated me. YAY me! Yep its the simple things that make you feel better.So today with renewed faith in my day it has gone pretty good. it hasn't been a week yet, but so far I am loving this app.

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/

Mentally I started feeling a lot better Monday night which is when I looked at this app and actually opened it on my phone. I have been experiencing better days since then. Yes, its only Thursday, but a good day is a good day. Hoping to start over with renewed faith and strength from within... HELLO LIZZY'S COMING!