Oh my goodness! It has been a long and hard year! As you can see from my lack of postings that I had completely fallen off. What can I say, life is HARD!!! Especially when you're trying to create space for yourself to do right by yourself. WELL! The picture above was taken this last September at my cousin's wedding. I squeezed myself into this dress, and put on a brave face as I went out in it. I did not feel beautiful or comfortable for that matter in my dress. I did the best I could to mask how I truly felt, but I had truly given up.
A friend slash brother of mine was telling me about a trainer that he signed up with, and I found myself feeling really.... lost???? If that makes sense. I figured I needed that kind of help as well.
I talked to a cousin of mine and she told me about a newly starting company. The owner and creator is a local sweetheart of mine. I spoke with the owner and we decided on a plan of execution and we began November 1st. Now I'm not gonna lie to you, I have been in my own way. A better lifestyle is hard to come by when so many of your unhealthy habits are emotionally charged. My progress has been coming, but I don't give myself credit like my trainer keeps telling me I should. At my trainer's urging I've started trying on some of my clothes to see how they fit me. Wait let me back up. My workout schedule is:
Sundays ~ Legs and cardio (with trainer)
Tuesdays ~ Cardio (on my own)
Fridays ~ Arms and upper body (with trainer)
So the week before I did burpees and my left knee did not like them too much. So on my Sunday workout my trainer noticed and she told me to take it easy and to monitor my progress. Tuesday instead of doing my normal xBox Zumba workout I decided to do my xBox Hip Hop Dance Experience and my knee was fine. But since our schedules didn't exactly link up on Friday we agreed to combine my Friday and Sunday workout on Saturday.
My trainer introduced a new exercise, that I was so proud of myself for being able to execute even though its REALLY hard. I don't know the name for it, but its a form of a plank. I didn't think I would be able to do it. But I was so excited when I could do it that I even volunteered to do more. A rare thing, most times I'm rolling my eyes and playfully accusing my trainer of hating me as I say thank you in my heart for making me do something I don't want to do. Makes sense right? Totally! But I was so excited when I did this really hard exercise, I felt a sense of accomplishment. But wait there's more....
When I was in high school I asked my dad if I could run track. He told me no, and no matter how hard I tried to convince him that I really wanted and needed to do it, he wouldn't budge. So all my life I've sat with all the what ifs, and I imagine myself as a runner. But I'm not even built like an athletic person so hey it is what it is. So we spent about a little over two hours working out Saturday. But the best part is when I slowly jogged the ENTIRE LAST LAP!!!! YES! YES! YES! SO JUICED!!! SO EXCITED! No, I'm not fast yet, but the fact that I made it all the way around without stopping has me so excited and feeling like my body is responding to all the madness. YES! I wanted to cry when I came in for my big finish. On the last curve "I" challenged myself to make it count and try to run faster. I was laughing like a crazy person and going crazy! My trainer said I was hilarious! But I did something I've NEVER been able to do. And YES my heart was filled with joy and EXCITEMENT! Now we wont talk about how I gasped for air in the end and for a quick second thought I was going to throw up. But that was all my fault for pushing. But I was happy.
I have noticed little differences like the muscles in my thighs, and subtle changes in my clothes. But the other day I was so excited to find a Niner shirt that it wasn't until later that I noticed a subtle change in my face when I took this picture.
So yea, there's progress. But I have a LONG way to go. Thank you "Creating Healthy Habits" for working with me and getting me this far. I know I have a long way to go. But I appreciate everything you've done.
